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I met Isaiah what seems like years ago, his story inspired me a lot he also did wrestling camps that my younger brother attended. We've always backed GGMGGY, whether it was wrist bands or apparel. I've had random people come up to me asking me about the brand and the testimony that paved the way for a new generation of people who walk the path of God. Thanks Isaiah for being an inspiration and renewing my faith!!
This is just one part of my Living Testimony.
My name is Matthew Allen Baatz.
I was born on the 8th of January, 1987.
I do not claim to be part of any religion. I am a Non-religious, Born Again Child of Ahayaha, The Living God, The Most High God; through He Who is the Promised Seed of Abraham, the Messiah, God Almighty in the flesh, Christ Jesus, Yashahaya Hamashiach!
Before I share this portion of my testimony, I would like to ask a question: “What is religion, if nothing more than the culmination of countless theories mankind has produced, in order to provide a basis of justification for a 'selfless’ ego?” I did not ask that question with malicious intent, but with the intent on bridging the gap.
The idea of religion seems to do more for division, than it does for unity.
Therefore I am curious, genuinely curious.
What if everyone who went to church picked up a Bible and read it for themselves? I believe that by studying the teachings and Words of The Living God, they would realize that they've been mislead by the blind and have been lead down the broad path, through the wide gate of religion, that leads straight for the Pit; because true Christianity is not religious, but an absolute way of life.
As a child, and through my early teenage years, I was told about Jesus Christ, Creation, His Sacrifice and the Holy Spirit. But there was never any real discussion about the Spiritual Awakening, Mysticism, Supernatural Experiences, Union with the Creator, etc.
So my experiences were the typical, "repeat this prayer after me, and you'll be saved." And, of course, the upturned noses of the average congregation, the gossip rings, the materialistic hearts, etc. In other words, my experiences were predominantly with the religion and not the actual way of life.
Since my rebirth I've come to the realization that Christianity, as with other religions, has been plagued with religious zealots, sadly. Thus it seems the majority of those whom assert themselves as "leaders" in their churches are pushing the religion, rather than the selfless, spiritual and unified as one, way of life that Yeshua/Jesus really came here to reveal.
Think about how we all have two hands, each with five digits. Each one is able to cooperate with the other and work independently of each other, too. All the while, being driven, fueled, energized, or powered by the same person, or source, if you will.
Each of us are connected, we can feel each others pain, loss and tragedy. Like when we’re driving and we pass by an accident scene and see a young woman clutching an empty car seat, crying uncontrollably. We feel what that pain must be like, and some of us may even mourn for her, empathize with her. And yet as we continue on towards our destination, we're unwittingly demonstrating our ability to still act independently of one another.
The energy we put out into the world, the power to speak life or death into the reality around us, it's the same that connects us; it's the Source, The Living God.
I don't know, it just seems like when we start placing labels, or a cover onto something that is self evident, it only gives another anchor for the ego to grab hold of.
But I digress.
There’s something that I can’t seem to get out of my head, “If we are all connected, in one way or another, then there has to be a purpose, a reason for being. Why am I here?”
Let’s go back to a time before I chose to make any real, significant changes to my life. Before someone shared specific Bible verses with me, asking that I read them with a truly open mind and not to associate them with religion, but just observe them from the perspective that they represent a different way of life.
I was made aware that this part of my testimony may be offensive to some. If you are offended by my testimony, by the truth I’m sharing, when nothing of what I’m saying could possibly be directed toward you, then you may want to ask yourself why and diligently seek out the answer.
When I was a child I was forced to witness and experience some things that no person, especially any child, should ever have to go through. A man who was 'trusted' to watch over my sister and I would always force me to watch graphic horror movies whilst taking my sister into a back room to help her with homework, sometimes for several hours. I remember he would tell me not to turn the TV off, or change the channel for any reason, and that if I did, “there will be consequences.” At some point I remember having changed the channel to something a bit more age appropriate. That same afternoon when our mom came to pick us up, this man told my mom, "Matthew deliberately disobeyed me! He didn't want to eat what you'd put in his lunchbox, so he waited until I went to help your daughter with her homework to throw it out. When I told him I wouldn't make him anything else to eat, he threw those on the floor!” He pointed to some of his wife's 100+ year old, early depression glassware that HE had actually shattered on the floor!
When I was dropped off at his house the next day, with a belt-worn-and-blistered behind, he made certain to tell me, "The next time you don't do exactly as I say, will be even worse. Understand?” I nodded, holding back tears as he stood in front of me, squishing my feet under the weight of his boot clad foot. He sneered, and almost chuckled as he said, “Good.”
But by the time I'd turned 5, things only got worse. One day, he would decide to take me into this back bedroom. (the same one he would take my sister into when he was “helping her with homework”) I remember standing in front of the door just before he opened it, and what he said to me, “If you tell anyone, anything, about what I’m going to show you, it will be the last mistake you ever make. I will kill you. But before I kill you, I’ll make you watch as I kill your mommy, your daddy, and your sister. Do you understand me?” I nodded, crying. He opened the door and forced me to sit in a chair in the corner of the room and watch, as he molested my older sister. This man eventually grew tired of her and turned his perverted attention towards me…
At the age of 5, I was raped.
Because of that, hate and anger began to consume my life.
No matter what I tried, even with the heavy use of drugs and alcohol, it was never enough to numb the pain. My life seemed to spiral out of control, which came to a head in 2003, when my mom was diagnosed with cancer and told she'd only have about 3 - 9 months, at best.
She passed away on December 22, 2005 and everything collapsed.
I blamed myself for her death. I convinced myself, “all the stress I'd caused her throughout my teen years is what sent her over the edge.”
And it was all because of what that one man did to my sister and I.
I kept thinking over and over again how much I hate him. ‘I hate him, my mom's dead now because of HIM! She's gone, but HE gets to live?’
As the tears rolled down my cheek, I yelled, "NO! FUCK YOU, GEORGE! JUST YOU WAIT!" just before taking another hit from that glass pipe.
Long story short, I found myself in prison not long after my mom had passed away. No, not because I found George and killed him, (although I'd be lying if I said I hadn't planned on it) but because the choices I made in order to feed my overwhelming habits had finally caught up with me.
I found myself wearing the Florida Blues, as an inmate at Brevard Correctional Institution in Cocoa, Florida. At the time. this Department of Corrections facility was classified for Youthful Offender inmates, between the ages of 16 and 24.
It was through the trials I'd face in this place, known amongst the other inmates as nothing other than 'gladiator school', where I started to ask myself one simple question... "Why?"
Why was I always angry, why was I so full of hate? Why did I look at other hispanic men and immediately think them to be evil and disturbing? Why did I always compare them to George?
Because, George was hispanic.
We are all taught to acknowledge an idea that our race is somehow a factor in who, or what, we are destined to become.
Why does it seem so hard to look beyond what our eyes are able to physically see?
That's when I realized, my life can't change unless my perspective changes.
My perspectives won't change, unless I change the way I think.
I can't change the way I think, unless I acknowledge the thoughts which promote negativity and make an active effort to stop them before they take root in my heart.
Once we're able to stop dwelling on these thoughts, we have the ability to change them. Changing our thoughts away from the things that propagate an eye for an eye, to thoughts that encourage selflessness, acceptance, charity, sacrifice and forgiveness doesn't just change your outlook on life; it changes your life, entirely.
Remember I mentioned how someone had shared some specific Bible verses with me, asking that I look at them, not as words from a religious book, but as a way of life and read them with an open mind?
Here are those verses:
"Do not imitate the way of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your minds, that you may discern what is that good and acceptable, and perfect will of God.” - Romans 12:2
“Let not your love be deceitful. Abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good.” - Romans 12:9
“Bless them which persecute you; bless, and curse not. Rejoice with them that rejoice, and weep with them that weep. Be of the same mind one toward another. Mind not vain glory, but associate with those who are humble. Be not wise in your own conceits. Recompense to no man evil for evil. But be careful to do good things before the presence of all men.” - Romans 12:14-17
“Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath; for it is written, Vengeance is mine: I will execute justice for you, said the LORD. Therefore if your enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink; for in so doing, you shall heap coals of fire on his head. Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.” - Romans 12:19-21
After reading them I had to ask myself, "Why couldn't I live this way?”
So while I was incarcerated, I surrendered my life to the Creator and made the decision to follow after The Living God. I turned to the One Whom I'd kept running away from, Jesus Christ. I Prayed and asked that He would speak to me at my core, through the Comforter, the Holy Ghost; Who reveals the real Power through the LOVE that Jesus Lived!
Shortly after my Metanoia, I was transferred from Brevard Correctional Institution, to Lake City Correctional Facility and was approved to participate in a faith based program that was offered there. During one of the morning programs, the volunteer that day asked if anyone had something they wanted to share. I started thinking about all of the anger and hatred I had toward that man, George, because of what he'd done. The thought, "what if I should share that?" Came to mind. But I instantly shot it down, because I was just WAY TOO nervous, I was NOT the one who was comfortable standing in front of even a few people, let alone the whole dorm!
If I knew that their eyes were focused on me, I was a nervous wreck! Any time I was called to the front of the class in school, I would stutter and stammer like it was going out of style!
But the moment I started to reject that idea, I immediately felt these warm, tingly waves flow over me and I felt lead to share something. I just didn’t know what it was that I was going to say.
I stood up, in a dormitory of roughly 60 other men and shared my story of overcoming anger and hatred and how, by the Grace of God Almighty, I was finally able to forgive George for what he'd done.
Mrs. McDaniels, the coordinator of the program, came to me afterwards and asked some questions about the testimony I shared. Specifically, she wanted to know if there was anything else related to that situation, or time in my life, that I may have unintentionally left out.
There was something.
Right around the time all of that was going on, when I was 5 going on 6 years old, my dad claims that he saw something truly evil one night. This is what he told me regarding what he saw, “You were just finishing up with your bath, so I opened the door to your bedroom just enough to grab the change of clothes I set on top of your dresser. When I couldn’t grab them, I figured they must have fallen off the dresser, so I opened the door in order to look and see where they were. The moment I turned on the light, my eyes were pulled to your bedroom window, and what I saw standing outside of your bedroom window had me frozen in absolute terror. I can’t explain how I know, but I KNOW it was the devil standing outside your bedroom window that night.”
To this very day he is convinced it wasn't a demon, but Satan himself standing there.
After sharing that with Mrs. McDaniels, she nodded slightly and muttered, “Yes, I see.”
She then asked if I'd noticed anything unusual while I was sharing my testimony with the dorm. I responded and said I wasn't sure what she meant.
She clarified by saying that every single man in that program, even the ones who'd normally be playing cards, writing, drawing, or otherwise not paying any mind to the guest speaker, were all watching me, listening and following along with me as I spoke, as I paced back and forth, making eye contact with everyone I could. She concluded our conversation by saying, "I know, in my Spirit, that you have an important purpose. I believe that God has a mighty plan for you in this life. That He is going to use you in ways that will bring down enemy strongholds. Strongholds that have been building up for generations will be utterly destroyed, because your testimony is living proof that God IS Alive and when we Call upon His Name, ALL things ARE possible! Mark my words, Matthew; God isn’t finished with you yet. The enemy wants to destroy you, and he may try; but no matter what the devil tries to throw in front of you, God WILL USE IT in a way that will Magnify His Name, and Glorify The Kingdom of Heaven!”
That was said to me back in 2009, about 3 - 6 months before I completed my sentence and was released from Lake City Correctional Facility. Oh how the enemy has tried, and tried, and tried!
To give you one example, let’s Fast-Forward about 8 years…
On January 17th, 2017 I was involved in an automobile accident that, by all counts, should have been fatal. I'm always reminded of what the 1st Responders were saying to the doctors and nursing staff when they had gotten me to the Emergency Room,
"Listen, I can't even believe he's here, alive, breathing... you have a real miracle here, especially if he's able to walk after this.”
Right up until that moment, the nurse hadn't known the extent of the damage to my car, then the EMT showed her a picture from the accident scene, and her mouth just dropped. She looked at me, as if she couldn't believe what her eyes were seeing. I felt as though I was reading her mind as I held eye contact with her, I swear I could HEAR her thoughts, 'WHAT!? HOW did you make it out of that alive!'
I shrugged and thought to myself, I'm trying to figure that out, too! (I can provide some photos of the car from the accident scene, if anyone's interested)
I did require ORIF, which is Open Reduction Internal Fixation surgery on my right tibia, due to a significant Tibial Plateau Fracture; and on my left wrist, due to a significant Distal Radius Fracture. A metal plate was affixed to the broken bones, accompanied by some rather long screws, pulling the bone together and helping them to heal better. I was given very clear direction, that under absolutely NO circumstances should I walk on, or apply any direct weight to my right leg for a full 12 weeks. I had to be careful not to any weight on my left wrist, too, which meant the use of crutches was out of the question for at least 3 months. This made traveling out to be a real challenge, but on the plus side, I had to hop around on my left leg every where we went, so skipping leg day wasn't an option! I also had a massive pulmonary contusion, (both lungs were all but completely bruised) a broken rib, 2 or 3 fractured ribs, a broken clavicle, fractured sternum, my left hand had several other fractures, and the carpal bones had become displaced.
After a few days in the hospital, post surgery, I was beginning to experience some pretty heavy chest pains, and as time crept by it was becoming increasingly difficult to breathe. The nurse decided to take a listen, and she was a little concerned because the symptoms indicated the potential for fluid buildup around the lungs, also known as Pleural Effusion. Not to be outdone by the rest of this vessel, my lungs had a thing or two to say, if you will. They decided to perform an ultrasound in order to get a good look at what sounds my lungs were making, and they found fluid... a lot of it.
The doctor who was performing the ultrasound said she needed to act quickly, (she was very calm, considering the gravity of the situation, the kind of doctor you want) because of the sheer volume of fluid that was compacting my lung cavity, it appeared that my right lung had nearly collapsed all together. She immediately prepared to perform a Thoracentesis, the procedure in which a needle is inserted into the pleural space between the lungs and the chest wall, in this case, by inserting the needle between two of the ribs in my back. Talk about some pressure!
When she was finished, she couldn't believe what she was looking at... a 1,000 milliliter (1 liter) bottle, full of blood that she just removed from my chest cavity.
The average human body has approximately 4 - 6 liters of blood, so depending on what my body typically produces, any where from 1/4, 1/5 or 1/6 of the total volume of my blood, was in my lung cavity.
The doctor said this was caused by the force of the collision, which had broken the one rib bone and this break had been pushed towards my lungs, causing just enough trauma to bleed internally, without actually puncturing through the lining.
Had the lining been punctured, my lungs would have filled with that liter of blood, which would have been more than enough to cause drowning... I was literally within millimeters of being drowned by milliliters of my own blood!
Talk about a miracle!
I just can’t seem to shake this notion that there's more to this life, like I'm here for something...
Again, the question begs an answer, “why am I here?”
I'm still learning, day in and day out.
I still fail to 'toe the line’, day in and day out.
But it's because of those failures that we are able to examine the circumstances, learn from them, and then apply what we learn.
It was through my many personal failures I finally came to realize, I CAN live that way. But what I get out of it, is wholly dependent upon what I put into it.
Do you know what Jesus Christ Promised?
“Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father.”
It was just my time to make that change, I suppose. To stop thinking like my parents, or their parents, or like those people who portray themselves to be leaders for good, but sow tares amongst the seeds in the field.
It was time to take back my mind, and my destiny.
Thanks for taking the time to read this mini-book! 😅
I still have a lot to learn, but I can't shake this notion that once we can collectively push beyond the walls of religious and scientific (as it is today) hypocrisy, the toxic influence of "approved" media programming, and corrupt governments; unified as One in Christ Jesus, with Selfless Love for our Creator, our neighbors and, yes, even our enemies; the foundations of the carnal Earth will tremble and this world will be turned upside down, for the better. Remember, Jesus said, "on earth as it is in Heaven." So yes, it's possible. And if sharing my story, my thoughts, a part of my life, a part of me, can help just one person, just one... in some way, for good...
Everything I've ever endured would ABSOLUTELY be worth it!
Thanks for allowing me to be part of this unity, and for providing me the opportunity to introduce myself!
There's more that I'd like to share with regard to specific events over my lifetime, things people have said, etc. but it's quite a lot.
I guess we'll see how this works!
May you be Blessed beyond all measure by The Living God, Whose Name in the flesh is Yahushua/Yeshua Hamashiach, Jesus the Messiah!
“Because of You, Jesus, I'm Alive! Thank You, Abba, Father! All things are possible with You!”
My testimony starts before my birth. While
pregnant with me, my mom was told by the
doctors that during my development my spine
hadn't fused together properly and diagnosed
me with spinal bifida. I was to be paralyzed from
the neck down for my whole life, never able to
feed myself and possibly even in a vegetative
state. She was encouraged to get an abortion.
Through a lot of fervent prayer from my
parents, my dad said God told him, "I don't make
trash". They went back for another ultrasound and the doctors couldn't explain it, my spine had
been healed and they called it a medical miracle.
Now I'm a professional athlete in the ultimate
combat sport. God still moves!
My parents divorced when I was a few years old
and they both remarried. I wasn't happy with
my home life and became a very angry teenager,
acting out at school and eventually turning to
drugs and gang activity. Thank Jesus, this was
short lived. I was sent to live at my dads house a
couple of hours away for the next school year,
where through discipline, structure and the
Holy Spirit I was changed for the better and
permanently set on the right track.
Though some of my struggles continued for
years with women and lust, eventually I met a girl named Mariah, who is now my wife. And
through our dating phase, with lots of prayer
and fasting, I was radically delivered from the
spirit of lust and struggling with porn and sex
addiction. We remained pure throughout our
whole dating relationship and saved intimacy
for each other until marriage. In our obedience,
God has really blessed our marriage, and we are
now expecting a child. God is good. There is
nothing that he can't redeem. And He still
Thank you God for Your Redirection in my misdirection!
Thank you God for My Life! I’m Blessed!
Thank you God for My Wife!
Thank you God for My Daughter!
Thank you God for My Entire Family, even the one’s that can’t stand me!
Thank you God for My Health!
Thank you God for My Wealth!
Thank you God for the Opportunity
to Praise Everything You Are!
Thank you God That You Are Never Far!
With All My Life I Will Continue To Praise You!!
This is my testimony, I promise This God Will Save You!!!
You Are Amazing!!!
Hi Isaiah, Eric told me about your new website. I love it! What a great way to share your testimony and the good news of Jesus and his father! I am putting your website in our church bulletin this Sunday and I will tell everyone to check it out, spread the word, and hopefully purchase some merchandise. If you're ever back in Iowa we would love to have you speak again and update us on your story, life, and your enthusiasm to share the Good News of God Almighty and Jesus Christ. God bless you, Julie Wilkerson